I’m dragging my fatigued body up the street
a rotten heart, motionless face, I am in a maze I cannot seem to find a way out;
all I have are those streetlights-
that stand so tall and unreachable, but I found the dim lights comforting
as if the light waves can reach my face, I looked up and thought to myself:
Can you guide me home?
That rainy night we were on the phone
Talking for hours about ourselves-
we just went on and on, and we never seemed to get tired of it.
Then we went to the balcony for a smoke break
we are miles apart; but connected
we lit our cigarette at the same time
and in that very moment when I look upon the stars
I saw you in the flickering light.
When midnight talks turned into silence
When hugging and giggling turned into hiding in our own beds
When dinner dates became responsibilities
When spending a day with you turned into a burden
When you acted so nonchalant after a fight
When everything turned silent- that’s when you know.
It comes at night, knocking on my door
First it started with slow knocks
Then, it started to knock repeatedly;
Knock, knock, knock, knock
The knocking sounds invaded my mind
The sounds that thrust through my brain
So repetitive and repulsive
I walked out of my bed to that door
Trying to figure out who’s knocking-
And all I found out
Is my shadow all along.
Sidenote: It’s been a while since I have updated this blog, but I think it’s about time for me to update and write again, writing is my passion and will always be.